I Have Literally No Idea What I'm Doing With My Life

I feel so cast off by the world, as if I don't belong here, which is what I've come to believe. I always feel like I'm just sitting there, waiting for something meaningful to happen in my life. I'm trying to pull myself up out of this goddamn hole, but it's hard to do when not all of you wants to get up. Every time I try to pull myself back up again, I notice another piece of me missing again. Lately, it's been my ability to feel. What kills me the most is that most things I would normally care about are slipping away from me, away from my mind, like I just don't care anymore. I promise, I want to care...

"Cause sometimes to stay alive, you gotta kill your mind."
- Twenty One Pilots