I Wrote This On An Algebra Test

I've found that, regardless of what you do and how hard you try, eventually, you're going to change. I've struggled with the thought and the concept of me changing for years, now. I'm afraid that someday, I"ll turn into someone I don't want to be, or someone that I've promised my whole life I would never become. And yet here I am, failing pretty much every single class I'm taking, regardless of my vow to myself to always put school first. Marijuana and seduction becoming a larger part of my life than the things that I was once convinced mattered more than anything in the world. They tell you people change, but they never tell you whether or not it's going to be for the better. That's the part you end up accidentally falling into on your own. And now, I'm trapped in a mind full of horrible decisions and temptation, broken relationships that I swore would last and pending anger. And all I can really do is hope that somewhere at the end if this phase, I will be able to find myself again, finally beyond all the negativity that I, myself created.