I Don't Even Know...

Why am I always on the brink of failure?? I always let myself fall down to right above the failing line... I really need to break this habit... I can do everything else just fine, but when it comes down to what really counts in the long run, I have a lack of motivation. I always let myself get super distracted. I don't know why. I'm capable of forcing myself to clean, to write, to read, but not when it's for a class... What the hell is wrong with me? I really need to get back onto this train, and stay on this time. I don't want to be on a role the whole first two weeks of the marking period, then fall off again. And now I have pressure to just get the hell out of here... My (boy)friend basically told me that I was our only chance out of here, this stupid city... Well, now I'm really feeling it.