A Lovely Implosion

A warmth like no other envelopes me when I'm in your arms, radiating from within. I rest my head on your shoulder, close my eyes, and I see shafts of light sliding up the walls of a dark room as the sun rises. I open my eyes and see your eyes, feel the press of a faint smile on my cheek and the rain starts to pour. Tides turn in my belly, waves crashing, washing up onto the shores of my heart. I nestle my nose in the crook of your neck, and I feel myself begin to unhinge as your sweetness tumbles through my nose and my breath hitches and I spring up onto my toes and our lips barely brush then my heart.
                    Just.
                            Stops.

I'm Done Feeling Guilty

Everything has been scaring me lately. Like, I'm so paranoid about losing something that I finally have, it's crazy... I don't know what to do anymore, how to feel. It feels like I've been ruined. I will never be the person I was before, thanks to one person in particular and a series of horrible events. I'm just going to try to let myself forget, because there is no use sitting around wishing I had done things differently.