I Have Control Again

I'm finally numb. I'm rejoicing, really happy. And the best part about it all, is that I have control again. I can control how heavy the feelings are, I can control whether or not I even want to think about the problem at the moment. I'm back. Finally... I've been waiting for this for several months now, and I've finally gotten it back. This probably doesn't seem like a huge deal to any of you guys, but this is great news for me... I feel powerful again... In control... Completely back in control. Now I know that the person who was hurting me is nothing too special, nobody worth crying for. And I'm done crying, done letting my pillow absorb my salty tears. I'm done bleeding for now, but I'm not going to pick at it until it is nothing more than a faint scar.