I'm So Tired

Everything has been a huge blur for me, lately. I'm scared that my grades have gone down, even though (most of them) are fine. I'm passing. That's not the problem. The problem is, I feel like, any second, I'm going to drop. Dead. I'm going to drop from exhaustion. I'm going to drop from the weight on my shoulders, and once I fall, it's going to crush the air out of me, until there is nothing left. I've had better days, and, obviously, today isn't one of them. I've gotten to the point where I only feel one of two things: either really down and sad and depressed, or I just feel empty inside. I don't know why. I've been meaning to get therapy, but I still haven't. The only thing I have that is close to therapy is music, but I haven't even had time to listen to it. I try, but every time I do, I am reminded of something else that I have to do that is, supposedly, more important than finding a cure to this Plague spreading through my body. One day, it's going to eat the rest of my soul, and leave me both dead and alive; a walking corpse.