Where Did I Go?

I miss the person that I used to be. Or the person that I thought I used to be. I retrospect, I don't know if I ever knew myself in the first place, if I was just lying to myself the entire time, hiding me from myself. I miss feeling things. I have literally become numb inside. It seems to be slowly eating away at me, devouring any crumbs left behind of emotions. I see old things that I did, remember old things that I had, think to myself, where did they all go? I know these things didn't define me, but there were things that used to come with me being myself that have dissolved away with time. I'm just waiting to return to who I was once, the person I despised. Now all I want is to be that person again.